WHAT THE FFFFFFFFFFF
i jst deleted all the birthdays in my phone calendar
jst adds on to my misery

So anyw i did screw up my As, (as expected) but my grades are so reversed for my subs its so ironic... & i'm surprised i didn't even cry when my mom told me my results over the phone. Weird. Its funny how everyone seems to think that i did very well, even before & aft the exams. Its alws like "oh don't worry sharlene you'll do well" or "pls its not possible that you'll do badly". Do i really seem like i'm good at my studies in sch..? I guess not all left-handers are that much of a genius haha

Well, it turns out all these people were wrong!
i've so much t worry bout now;
getting into a local uni/SIM,
freaking expensive course fees for SIM
& what course i even want and CAN do

I used to think those people who alws had their mind set on a career in the past as "lame" or "over-driven" but now i wish i had a consistent ambition like them too.. I think i'll go crazy soon thinking bout all this shit everyday & i can't even stay focused at work. I think this internship can't even save my fucking lousy grades for nuts. Wanqi thinks that i'm putting on a front despite my grades & disappointment, but mayb its jst purely cos i'm too sick of it & i can't be bothered anymore..

I really want to be back in spore now w everyone :'(
i can't even talk t anybody here bout my results unis & whatnot w/o worrying bout blowing up my aunt's home phone bill. This is so fucked up, i don't feel "lucky" or " appreciative" bout havin this overseas internship when i really shld be feeling that way. I guess i jst don't deserve it.

& I’d walk through hell for you; 10:35 PM